Thursday, December 30, 2010

Making Some Changes

I hate to admit to this, but I've completely "let myself go" over the last few years. Growing up, I was involved in gymnastics and soccer until I graduated from high school - I was always active and in really great shape. When I went off to college I worked out a few times a week over the course of 4 years, but it definitely wasn't as much by the time my senior year rolled around. I did gain weight during my college years, but not enough for me to really do anything about it.

Then, I graduated and started my first "big girl job." Exercising quickly took a backseat as I got adjusted to balancing my time and my new life. Two summers ago I was at the heaviest weight I'd ever been and, honestly, when I saw that number on my scale I cried. I slowly started to make some changes in my eating/exercising habits and was able to see the difference. Make an effort = see results...who would've thought?!

Then before my wedding last year, I lost a little bit more weight and toned up in order to feel my best on my big day. I could've worked a little harder, but that's hindsight and there's nothing I can do about it now!

I've been married for 14 months and I've gained back all the weight I lost plus a few more pounds. Like I said, I'm disappointed in myself. I have no other excuse other than I've been lazy, which sounds like an understatement. Sadly, it took me a year to realize that I don't need to consume as much food as my husband. Along with that and my lack of exercise, what was I thinking would happen?

I told my husband the other day that I need to make some serious changes. First and foremost, I need to learn to love myself again. I think that's the deep rooted issue here. If I truly loved myself, then this probably wouldn't have happened. I do my best to honor the Lord in all I do, but I've failed in this area of my life. I want to honor my body as I'm called to do in His word. I'm praying that He would allow me to see myself with His eyes. I want to remember and truly believe that "I am fearfully and wonderfully made" as it says in Psalm 139.

So, as 2011 rolls in I want to commit myself to getting healthy. Sure, I want to lose weight, but I want to focus more on becoming healthier. I plan to do this by paying closer attention to the types of food I'm putting into my body, drinking more water, and making an exercise plan and sticking to it! We are talking about trying to start a family next year and I want to be as healthiest I can be before that happens.

Friday, December 24, 2010

Our Christmas tree sits right in front of the door when you walk in the house, and I can't help but be overwhelmed every time I see it! God has richly blessed us to be able to buy gifts for our family and friends. He is just so good to us and to be honest, sometimes I take it for granted. This year I've really tried to focus on the reason we celebrate...the birth of our Savior! I've cried almost every day these last two weeks because I'm just so overwhelmed by God's love for me. I don't know if anyone reads this, but if you are, I pray that these next two days, and everyday, are filled with reflection, peace, love, and abundant joy! Merry Christmas!

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

A Thankful Heart

Just some things I'm thankful for this Thanksgiving:

A God who loves me unconditionally and extends His grace and mercy when I don't always deserve it.

A husband who I love more and more each day. He makes me laugh until I cry, he encourages me and prays for me, he wipes my tears away...he is my very best friend. I thank God every day for him and for a marriage that has Christ at the center.

My family who I love to pieces. We've been through a lot in the last two years, but it's only made us closer. We are a bit spread out these days, but that doesn't change anything. We have so many wonderful memories and we create new ones each time we get together. It's such a blessing to consider my parents and siblings some of my closest friends.

My husband's family. I've been blessed to have married into a family who loves the Lord.

My church family. We may be few in number, but these are some of the most genuine people I've ever met. These people love God with their whole hearts and are earnestly seeking Him. I have grown so much since I first started there about three years ago. I've learned Truth at New Life and I'm so thankful for all that God teaches me each time I step in the door.

My job. While it might not be the greatest at times, I am incredibly thankful that I have a job to go to each day. I love my co-workers and we do have a blast together every day. I love that I get to encourage and help high school students.

My health.
My car.
A place to lay my head each night.
Food in the refrigerator.

I could go on and on, but those are some of the big things I'm currently thankful for. I told H the other day that it's so important to thank God for the little things as well. I even thanked God that I found my sunglasses after searching for them for a week!

"Every good and perfect gift is from above..." --James 1:17

Monday, November 1, 2010

On Friendship

I've been doing a lot of thinking about friendships lately. Mainly because I feel like I've been lacking in this department since I moved here three years ago. For some reason or another, it's been hard for me to meet people my age who I share interests with. I've been thinking of trying to find a cooking class, scrapbooking class, or something along those lines, to hopefully meet some people around my age. It's not like kindergarten when you just go up to someone and ask if they will come to your birthday party and be your friend, ya know? If only it were that easy!

I've also been struggling with the fact that I'm not as close with my group of girlfriends from college as I once was. To be honest, this breaks my heart. There was a group of about 14 of us who were inseparable in college and shortly after we graduated. Naturally, a few of us started moving away, but most of them still live in one general location. Before I moved here, I was able to see them a few times a month and we got together regularly. Now it's almost as if we can't be friends since we don't live in the same state to see each other. There are about 5 of those girls who I try to talk with weekly, but lately, it's like pulling teeth to get them to call me back. It's sad because I feel like I've fallen off their radar. I think about them often and will call just to chit chat, but none of them ever just pick up the phone to say hi to me and see how I'm doing. Yes, I'm having a pity party right now, but I'm really sad about it. These are people who I thought would be in my life forever, but I'm coming to the realization that God might have other plans.

I told H the other day that I think part of this has to do with the fact that I wasn't quite sure who I was in college. I'm not sure why, but for awhile I was pretending to be someone I was not. Maybe now that I have my priorities straight and am doing my best to stay on the straight and narrow, God has different friends in mind for me. I understand that some people come into your life for a season and not everyone is meant to be with you for a lifetime. I'm slowly becoming okay with that.

I pray for God to send me godly women who I can "do life with." I know that He will, in His timing. I have a feeling that He's really trying to show me that He needs to be my ultimate best friend. I say that He is, but maybe everyone else needs to be stripped away in order for me to really believe that. I'm thankful for this time of refinement because the Lord has used it to draw me even closer to Himself.

Monday, March 22, 2010


I had this science teacher in 6th grade and every time he would say "balance" he would drag it out like ballaaaaannnceee. So, now when I hear that word I can't help but say it like that in my head!

Anyways...finding a way to balance all facets of life is a tricky thing, I've come to realize. Between working full time, spending quality time with the husband, getting dinner on the table, attemping to keep the house clean (key word: attempting), and church activities, I sometimes feel like I'm running around like a chicken with its head cut off. Sometimes, it gets to be a bit overwhelming, ya know what I mean? Don't get me wrong, I'm in no way complaining about any of these things. I've allowed myself to get too overwhelmed lately and when that happens, I tend to shut down. It's something I'm definitely working on! I'm trying to be better about planning ahead with meals or even taking 20 minutes when I get home from work to straighten the house up a bit. I've found that a lot can be done in those 20 minutes! In the last few months, I've found it's been easier to balance everything and for that I'm thankful! I have a tendency to be a perfectionist at times, so I continually have to remind myself that things aren't always going to be perfect. It's just another reminder that I am a work in progress and that God isn't finished with me yet!

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

In the Beginning

Finally, after keeping up with several blogs, I've decided it's time to start one of my own! I've always enjoyed writing and actually find it to be quite therapeutic. I'm looking forward to capturing time on this little blog of mine.

The last few months I've been praying for God to renew my mind and that I would have unspeakable joy. I've really been trying to choose joy in every situation and experience the abundant life that He wants for me. Hence, the blog name!